Thank you for reading my last post and for taking the time to comment on my FB page if you did. I am overwhelmed by the support and love I have received. I do feel it is important to share this story, even if there is sometimes a little voice in my head that says, “this is a way to seek attention.” That’s my social anxiety flaring up.
I choose to move past that and write openly.
Writing about this is a way of digging deeper into myself, trying to understand what happened during the psychotic episode that led me to a mental health ward, connecting with others who have similar stories to share, giving permission to those who are too shy to speak up or seek help yet, and also thanking those who have held me throughout and who continue to do so.
A year and a half ago I was paranoid to the point that I thought I was being followed and targeted. Initially, in my mind, everybody around me was trying to teach me something, to help me grow, that quickly flipped into “everyone is plotting against me”. Thankfully there is no more paranoia left, except the slight lingering wonder of who knows and who doesn’t know what happened to me!
By opening up about all of this publicly that fear has dissipated. I feel free. What a relief. Being open and direct is part of my healing process.
Thank you again for reading, for your thoughts, comments, or questions.